The Long Cut

The Long Cut

the mind of an ex addict

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    Our house was full, and I knew, without a doubt, that everyone was sent by God. Some of us walked through darkness, some of us were brought in nice vehicles by loved ones, and others were sentenced by a judge to complete a long-term recovery program as a condition of their probation or parole. However,…

    Z T Hand

    February 10, 2023
    Recovery
  • Numbers

    I’m clean once again. I count the days one at a time as they pass. The sun does its dance around us until the music stops and everyone goes home. I spend hours thinking about the days that follow and I blame it on my “anxiety”. Truthfully, I’m waiting for happiness to fall from the…

    Z T Hand

    February 3, 2023
    Recovery
  • The Temp Agency

    We were standing in a single file line in what seemed to be some sort of ballroom. It was a big wide open space. The room could’ve been used to host a football game or even a soccer match. I rubbed my eyes and pinched my cheek to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. The opposing…

    Z T Hand

    January 28, 2023
    Recovery
  • January in October

    It’s early morning in late November and we’re together once again. I feel like I’ve had my fair share of happiness this year but it’s gone now. Things are quiet. The days are short and gloomy. Christmas will be another day for us and this breaks my heart. I don’t know who or where I’d…

    Z T Hand

    November 26, 2022
    Recovery
  • The Temp Agency

    Ever wonder why your birthmark looks different from mine? It means that I’ve been assigned certain tasks and responsibilities. Furthermore, it means that I’ve left this world and come back again. I’ve been reborn. The birthmark was my pass back to life. I know this may sound a little crazy right now but I’ll try…

    Z T Hand

    November 16, 2022
    Recovery
  • Accountability Partner

    Chapter Six “Let’s grab a bottle and drive to the river.” For whatever reason, we seemed to be in a hurry tonight. We pulled into a dark empty parking lot. I chose to jump out first and collect myself before walking around to meet her. I hadn’t felt this way in a long time. I…

    Z T Hand

    November 1, 2022
    Recovery
  • Accountability Partner

    Chapter Five Do you struggle finding enough time in your schedule to cook a nice meal? Now you don’t have to! Chef Champ is a fast and easy way to enjoy meals anywhere! You can own this mobile kitchen and stay on top of your schedule wherever you go with just seventeen easy payments of…

    Z T Hand

    September 15, 2022
    Recovery
  • Accountability Partner

    Chapter Four There were many nights I walked out on Barbara. Sometimes I’d walk the streets for a week or longer. I wasn’t happy, and neither was she. Our relationship was suffering, and we both knew it. The reflection of street lights run up and over the windshield. I watch them gather in a straight…

    Z T Hand

    September 9, 2022
    Recovery
  • Accountability Partner

    Chapter Three This drive is constantly taking place in my head. The chase for this drug is nonstop. It begins the minute I wake, and lasts until I close my eyes at night. I’m obsessed with it. Mr. Glad was right, I’m back in the cycle. Stuck in a neverending loop. It’s my very own…

    Z T Hand

    September 7, 2022
    Recovery
  • Accountability Partner

    Chapter Two She’s worried sick, and I’m in the middle of trying to kill myself. However, I could care less. I’m already streaming the next episode in my head as I lay here. This place feels like one big service station. I recall another time almost dead, and as they’re rolling me into the back…

    Z T Hand

    September 3, 2022
    Recovery
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